I will never Feel the Same Happiness if I wished for Things to be Different
There are days when I just can’t understand what’s going on in my life, and I can’t help but pray for things to be different. I would beg God to change my situation and help me. I would ask Him to put me in a place where I can find rest and peace. And the good thing is, most of the time, He won’t give me what I wanted. It’s great news because if He had listened to the cries of my heart, then I would never feel this kind of joy right now. Maybe if He changed my situation, I would never learn to value His blessings and cherish His peace. Now I know, He purposely allowed me to go through those difficulties because He wants me to receive this kind of happiness. What I went through was never a waste of time. It’s all part of His great purpose in my life.
Whenever I encountered challenges and pain, I would step back and feel scared. I used to cry out to God to send me to another place. I tend to hide myself and ask Him to make things better. Little did I know, I’m always begging Him to change what I can’t control. I missed the point. All this time, He is teaching me how to focus on what I can manage and not on my surroundings. I always feel weak and weary because every time I look at my situation, fear tends to consume my thoughts. But the moment God taught me how to shift my focus on the way I perceive things, I slowly see myself growing from glory to glory.
The challenges and storms I encountered are part of who I am. Without those difficult moments, my life would probably stay the same – poor mindset, full of doubts, and consumed with worries. I used to live knowing that I could never do something about my fears and weaknesses. But little did I know that God could absolutely give me more than enough grace to face all the challenges. He sustained me all throughout the years. He remained so patient, especially when I asked Him to change the plans that He created. I really thank Him for not answering my prayers. Now, I feel so grateful because God allowed me to stay in situations that I don’t want. Because during those moments, I learned to figure out who He truly is and who I am in His eyes.
From then on, I stopped wishing for things to be different. By the grace of God, I learned to embrace the difficulties knowing that someday, in His perfect timing, I’ll experience the kind of joy that I can never contain. And that deep fulfillment only exists because of the challenges that He allowed me to face. I owe this happiness that I feel to the painful moments that I experienced.
God patiently taught me how to trust Him along the process. I know the path that I will take won’t be smooth and easy, but I rest in the assurance that I’ll experience lasting happiness in the end.
