I’m so sorry Lord, for Neglecting your Love

My Loving Father,

I’m so sorry, especially in those moments when I can’t even appreciate the things that you are doing for me. I’m sorry for neglecting your love and for putting my emotions first. Forgive me for being so selfish. You’ve been there, and you never leave me alone. You remained so patient even in moments when I can’t love you back. Now, I realized that all this time, I keep on pushing you away from my heart because I don’t think that you can help me. And I was wrong. I thought that I can make it on my own, but now I learned that I need you in my life. I need your love, Lord. I can’t do this with you. I pray for your strength, and please lead me back to your heart again.

Please teach me how to humbly receive your love. Please renew my mind and the way I see things. Take away the negative thoughts inside and replace them with your goodness and grace. Father, please heal my heart. Maybe I’m scared to receive Your love because I already experienced so much pain in life. I felt so broken. That’s why I never opened my heart to you. I thought I can fix this by myself. But no matter what I do, I still feel in pain and very fragile. Now I know that I can’t do this, Lord. I can’t heal my own heart. I just need your power. So please come and reign inside.

Open the eyes of my heart Lord so that I may appreciate your love. Teach me how to treasure everything that you did for me. I was too full of my own desires that I never consulted you or rely on Your instructions. I’m so sorry for those moments when I choose to depend on my own understanding. Because of the things happening around me, I realized that I don’t know what You are doing behind the scene. So help me, Father. That I may able to see a glimpse of heaven here on earth. That I may rely on Your love and not on my own strength.

Thank You because You never stopped loving me. Thank You for staying beside me even in moments when I tend to forget you. Thank You for Your grace and for providing me everything that I need. Father, thank You for being so patient with me. Your love for me is just so amazing.  I can never contain the depths of Your love, Lord. Yes, I may not understand You, but please give me a heart that’s always willing to trust in Your ways.

This I ask. In Jesus’ name, I pray.

Amen.