John 15:4, NIV
You can’t bear fruit without Jesus. Remember that He is the vine. He is the source of life. You need His grace and salvation. You need His love. So don’t just live this life on your own. Maybe you think that you can independently do things outside His presence, but He alone can help you maximize the blessings that He gave. Acknowledge His sovereignty in your life, and be in a serious relationship with Him. Only then will you realize what it means to remain in His presence. It’s not easy, especially when you face so many obstacles and storms, but if you just stay rooted in the arms of Jesus, then when the perfect time comes, you will see the fruit of your pain and hardships.
I pray that you will remain in the presence of God.