The Unspoken Thoughts of A Wounded Heart: Day 1

Dear God,

I have this weird feeling.  I kept praying to you, but it seems like nothing is happening. It’s been one year since I received your love. Since then, I desired to really know your heart. I decided to serve you despite the pain inside. I read your Words even if I couldn’t easily comprehend everything. But then, it seems like I didn’t really know you at all. It’s weird because the more I receive your grace, the more I realize that I know nothing.

I mean, there are still things that I couldn’t understand. Or is this really part of the journey?

Is this what it means to follow you, my Lord?

Is this what it means to be your disciple?

Isn’t it the Teacher’s role to explain complicated things? Why does it seem like I haven’t heard your answers?

How do you want me to deal with the things I can’t understand? How do you want me to see the wounds in my heart?

Help me, Lord.

I just don’t know where to start.

Love,

Via