How I Wish I Could Go Back And Change The Past

Have you ever experienced that kind of feeling when you just wanted to go back to how it used to be? No fears, no worries, no anxieties. Nothing. The comfort you used to have now slowly turned into questions. Will I survive this season? Will I find the light I’m looking for? Will I ever experience pure joy again? If you also felt the same thing, then you are not alone. Just like you, there are also days when I imagine things as they used to be. And it usually happens when I’m in the middle of a painful and uncomfortable season. When I find it hard to face my situation, I tend to return to the past and wish things to stay the same.

Little did I know that I set myself up for disappointment. My expectations are trying to push me to believe in things that no longer exist. And in return, it left me hopeless. I usually ask God to turn back the time so that I can change my decisions, but in the end, it never happens. Simply because God doesn’t work that way. He has His own ways. And the wonderful thing about it is that He can make things work despite the bad things that happened. He can turn things into something good for the sake of those who love Him.

God’s Promises

His promises gave me the assurance that everything would be okay. My job is not really to fix everything because there are situations that I can’t control, but what I need to do is to love Him. I just have to follow and abide in His will because He alone can give me a better understanding to what I am facing. Sometimes, I feel so overwhelmed because I try to carry everything on my shoulders. I can easily forget that God is there, always ready to help and support me. I usually find myself facing my battles on my own, not knowing that God’s grace is always available.

Now, what I need to do is keep my faith. I must learn to trust that God is guiding me all along the way. This is not an easy thing to do, especially when I’m in pain and scared. I don’t know how I will hold on to what He said when everything is a mess. But then, the amazing part is God is always comforting me. He sustains and guides me every step of the way. I may feel so weak, but His strength became more evident. I may feel powerless because I can’t bring back the past, but His power has become more real in my life. This truth gives me the strength to move forward and step outside my comfort zone.             

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