I know that I am not Perfect that’s why I need God’s Guidance

There are days when I feel scared and anxious. When I experience unexpected circumstances, I tend to withdraw from the crowd and keep my emotions inside. Even when it hurts, I try to keep myself together so that I’ll appear strong and responsible. But then deep within, my heart is so broken. I am not perfect. People would look at me as if I’m a clean and very innocent person. But just like anyone else, I do have a lot of struggles in life. And because I tried to hide the real me, I find myself carrying the expectations of others. That’s when I realized that it’s better to appear vulnerable than give other people the idea that I don’t have any problems. This truth also helps me acknowledge my weaknesses. It leads me to trust in God’s power and not in my own strength. The negative things and all my imperfections made me more dependent on God’s guidance and not on my own will.

I thought that putting a perfect image of myself will help me feel secured and protected from the harsh treatment of others. But it made me feel like I’m inside a box and don’t have the freedom to commit mistakes. It feels so suffocating and I can’t hardly breathe. Other people’s standards became my god and their voices became my conscience.

I can no longer receive God’s instructions because I tend to focus on what other people are saying. That’s why I thank God for teaching me how to accept the messy part of my heart. He taught me how to acknowledge the imperfections I have inside. He gave me the freedom to be who He created me to be. His goodness became so evident in my life.

The moment I began to see all my negative traits, I also learned to look at God in a different image. He accepts me for who I am. He made me feel so special, that’s when I realize that I don’t have to be perfect just to receive His love. I need to humble myself so that I can acknowledge His presence in my life.

God’s perfect ways gave me hope to believe that better days are coming. I will still experience bright future ahead. And it’s not because of what I have or what I can do, but it’s all because of His power. My weaknesses helped me see the depths of His love and mercy. I can’t still contain it, but right at this moment, He gave me the idea about how He can transformed my life if I only trust in Him.

He poured out blessings that I don’t even deserve. He made a way even when I’m so full of doubts and worries. Every time I see my imperfections, I learned to humbly obey God’s instructions. I can’t trust myself. I can’t rely on my own strength. I am too weak to overcome all the challenges. I badly need God’s grace and mercy.

I thank God because He made me this way. Before, I tend to feel so disappointed every time I discover my weaknesses. But now, He changed the way I see things. He taught me how to focus in Him and not in my self. He guided me all throughout the journey and that made my life here on earth more meaningful. I am who I am today not because of what I have, but all because of God’s perfect love. Yes, I am not perfect, but at some point it became a blessing in my life because my weaknesses never fail to remind me to put my trust in God.